Thursday, February 25, 2010
期许的坏习惯
最近总是发现自己的记忆力衰退,注意力无法集中。
这是可能是事情处理太多而造成自己的空白吗?
NOPE....
我想应该是事情放弃跟摆烂太多所导致的吧。
习惯性的种种，无限轮回。
亮了红灯，也不见得停。
亮了绿灯，竟然却步。
新的一年希望自己的眼睛不要只看着眼前，偶尔也看看左右。
也不要只看也要动。
保持思考。
更希望自己在评论别人前先瞧瞧自己，自己根本还没发芽。
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Mistakes of the Past
Everyone of us has done things in the past that we regret later in life. The guilt of doing it, does haunt us one time or another, doesn't it?
It is something which had gone wrong, that you could have repaired well now as compared to then. When someone reminds you of those things, you start remembering it. Everything appears and passes in front of you like a flash. You forget the things on hand. Sometimes, just that short amount of time of thought can spoil your whole day.
The past is much more powerful than it looks. The past carries vital experiences that can be used in the present. Something similar happening can be solved well with the experiences we had before. But it also has its own ugly face, which can turn the tide in today's context of things. It will spoil your mood, make you upset or even feel irritated on yourself.
Well... it depends from person to person. Some people don't like remembering things, some don't even remember things. For me, I tend to get upset by things like this. My mood changes extremely fast and I totally feel miserable. The guilt of doing something wrong in the past, does haunt me.
I have tried lot of things to keep myself busy during such an outburst of thoughts. But somehow, I find myself trapping in the darkest canopy of room. Getting lost in the thoughts and giving no care to what was happening in front of me. Me being a Gemini, fast changes of mood was by nature.
A couple of days ago, I had one those days again. Remembering some old friend whom I have no contact now. The way we went different ways, was not satisfying. I felt I could have done much better to keep in touch with that person, instead of having a not so good relationship.
All of a sudden there were some thoughts passed through my mind, i figured out the way to break the jinx. I am a normal human being and I am allowed to make mistakes. Nobody is perfect, those days are gone. Maybe I should not forget that it is the past that I have grown up from. Feeling guilty about it, will not resolve anything today.
I changed the way I felt about the whole thing. I felt great about leaving things behind, especially the guilt feeling. I did a mistake, but I can forgive myself even though my friend could not. I felt better within. I am a changed man now.....
It is something which had gone wrong, that you could have repaired well now as compared to then. When someone reminds you of those things, you start remembering it. Everything appears and passes in front of you like a flash. You forget the things on hand. Sometimes, just that short amount of time of thought can spoil your whole day.
The past is much more powerful than it looks. The past carries vital experiences that can be used in the present. Something similar happening can be solved well with the experiences we had before. But it also has its own ugly face, which can turn the tide in today's context of things. It will spoil your mood, make you upset or even feel irritated on yourself.
Well... it depends from person to person. Some people don't like remembering things, some don't even remember things. For me, I tend to get upset by things like this. My mood changes extremely fast and I totally feel miserable. The guilt of doing something wrong in the past, does haunt me.
I have tried lot of things to keep myself busy during such an outburst of thoughts. But somehow, I find myself trapping in the darkest canopy of room. Getting lost in the thoughts and giving no care to what was happening in front of me. Me being a Gemini, fast changes of mood was by nature.
A couple of days ago, I had one those days again. Remembering some old friend whom I have no contact now. The way we went different ways, was not satisfying. I felt I could have done much better to keep in touch with that person, instead of having a not so good relationship.
All of a sudden there were some thoughts passed through my mind, i figured out the way to break the jinx. I am a normal human being and I am allowed to make mistakes. Nobody is perfect, those days are gone. Maybe I should not forget that it is the past that I have grown up from. Feeling guilty about it, will not resolve anything today.
I changed the way I felt about the whole thing. I felt great about leaving things behind, especially the guilt feeling. I did a mistake, but I can forgive myself even though my friend could not. I felt better within. I am a changed man now.....
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