Mistakes of the Past

Everyone of us has done things in the past that we regret later in life. The guilt of doing it, does haunt us one time or another, doesn't it?

It is something which had gone wrong, that you could have repaired well now as compared to then. When someone reminds you of those things, you start remembering it. Everything appears and passes in front of you like a flash. You forget the things on hand. Sometimes, just that short amount of time of thought can spoil your whole day.

The past is much more powerful than it looks. The past carries vital experiences that can be used in the present. Something similar happening can be solved well with the experiences we had before. But it also has its own ugly face, which can turn the tide in today's context of things. It will spoil your mood, make you upset or even feel irritated on yourself.

Well... it depends from person to person. Some people don't like remembering things, some don't even remember things. For me, I tend to get upset by things like this. My mood changes extremely fast and I totally feel miserable. The guilt of doing something wrong in the past, does haunt me.

I have tried lot of things to keep myself busy during such an outburst of thoughts. But somehow, I find myself trapping in the darkest canopy of room. Getting lost in the thoughts and giving no care to what was happening in front of me. Me being a Gemini, fast changes of mood was by nature.

A couple of days ago, I had one those days again. Remembering some old friend whom I have no contact now. The way we went different ways, was not satisfying. I felt I could have done much better to keep in touch with that person, instead of having a not so good relationship.

All of a sudden there were some thoughts passed through my mind, i figured out the way to break the jinx. I am a normal human being and I am allowed to make mistakes. Nobody is perfect, those days are gone. Maybe I should not forget that it is the past that I have grown up from. Feeling guilty about it, will not resolve anything today.

I changed the way I felt about the whole thing. I felt great about leaving things behind, especially the guilt feeling. I did a mistake, but I can forgive myself even though my friend could not. I felt better within. I am a changed man now.....